Just a wee note to say that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth, just half way. And you know what? It was kinda nice.
My Mac cable went kapütt, so my mac eventually went into permasleep for a week and it gave me a chance to step away for a bit. Yes, I was on H's PC doing the necessary work that needed to be done and on my iPhone, however, I did take, for me, quite a huge step back from my digital life.
I'm working as many hours as possible at my shop job for mulah, because it's evil and makes the world go round. Unfortunately I can't change this, so I have to join it. Also, I'm trying to figure out (still - like I've been doing since the beginning) to figure out where I'm going. As you might have noticed there isn't work for me here in Edinburgh and in 2 weeks, I'll be that much older and that less employable.
I find it funny, because people in the industry complain and don't understand why I want it so much. Because it's me. That's it, that's that. I don't know what else to do and anything else I would have to go back to school for and then there are no promises of a job in the end for that either.
Between weddings, family meals, this illness/flu thing that I cannot-shake-for-the-life-of-me and paying work. The Blog has been neglected. I apologise.
I'll end on two things: 1. I was told this past weekend that eventually you need to give up on your dream and find somethign else. Well, that does make sense in a practical way, but it would make me feel like a complete failure and 2. If I do change my destiny, what do I do with this blog?
p.s. Happy American Thanksgiving: remember to be thankful for all the little things you might take for granted each day. That's what the day is truely about, and everyday should really be about. Friends, family, being lucky enough to have food on your table, much less choice. Clothes on your back and a roof over your head.
I am thankful for all of these things and so much more.